活着

more and more i realize that i just want to live a simple, down-to-earth, occasionally remarkable, life. i want a stable stream of easy, happy days, surrounded by the people i love and doing and enjoying the things i love. i want days peppered with little adventures, but not too much. i want minor trials and tribulations, the sort that will remind me to cherish everything i have, but not too much, not too much. i want safety. i want simple happiness. i want to live with my heart CONNECTED. i don't want to be a victim of the modern existence. i want realness, solidness, connections, love. yes, the things that are hard to come by. the things that seem so important but so unreachable.

it has been something that i have been thinking abt for a long time. then i read the book 活着 by 余华.

and then........something rose and expanded in my heart.

suddenly, i understood something about life, something i can't even articulate into words.

friends, let's LIVE. let's really start to live.