i really like her photos, simply because they truthfully represent her youth.
http://nghoiwah.com
listening to damien rice.
thinking about the last year, wondering about.....too many things.
we keep making choices, not knowing how they might change our lives.
living is such a dangerously delicate affair.
i want to conclude 2009 on a good note, oh i so desperately do. but i don't know HOW to do that. i'm not sure i want 2010 to come. and yet at the same time i can't wait to move on.
i pray for a good year for my loved ones and myself. i pray even though i'm not sure if anyone's listening.
thinking about the last year, wondering about.....too many things.
we keep making choices, not knowing how they might change our lives.
living is such a dangerously delicate affair.
i want to conclude 2009 on a good note, oh i so desperately do. but i don't know HOW to do that. i'm not sure i want 2010 to come. and yet at the same time i can't wait to move on.
i pray for a good year for my loved ones and myself. i pray even though i'm not sure if anyone's listening.
2009/2010
i start being a workaholic again on 1 jan 2010. i'm not so used to lazing around actually, although i really really enjoy living like this. not having to wake up at any particular time, extensive grocery-shopping, hanging out at home, watching DVDs, eating dinner in the neighbourhood, walking around doing nothing very important or consequential everyday.....it's all very kampongly and homely. if i could do this for the rest of my life - without having to worry about having to make a living and whatever other worldly thing - i would. i really would. although preferably not in singapore, preferably somewhere next to the beach, where i can catch the sunrise and sunset everyday just right outside my house......
but urban life does have its allure lah (although decreasingly so).
argh i am bad at consoling people or dishing out advice. so.... i don't know. i wish i could do something to help.
there're some people who you really really get to know and like so when the two of you are together it's like everything is unstoppable. i had this friend in jc who was like that. we only spent a matter of months together (she later left for another jc) but we really hit it off. she could bitch abt people in the awesomest way ever and it would leave me laughing and dying of stitches. we really really had something special. we understood each other in a way that no one else could. it was amazing. so many years have passed and i sometimes remember how we were laughing at each other's ugly student pass photo in the school hall and how i could say anything i wanted to say to her and not feel strange abt it and how she was the one who first discovered me holding hands with a girl in school (and she kept the secret of course, hahaha). and so many years have passed and i haven't met another person like her.
time always takes away some things from us.
but urban life does have its allure lah (although decreasingly so).
argh i am bad at consoling people or dishing out advice. so.... i don't know. i wish i could do something to help.
there're some people who you really really get to know and like so when the two of you are together it's like everything is unstoppable. i had this friend in jc who was like that. we only spent a matter of months together (she later left for another jc) but we really hit it off. she could bitch abt people in the awesomest way ever and it would leave me laughing and dying of stitches. we really really had something special. we understood each other in a way that no one else could. it was amazing. so many years have passed and i sometimes remember how we were laughing at each other's ugly student pass photo in the school hall and how i could say anything i wanted to say to her and not feel strange abt it and how she was the one who first discovered me holding hands with a girl in school (and she kept the secret of course, hahaha). and so many years have passed and i haven't met another person like her.
time always takes away some things from us.
money, freedom, dreams. the universal themes of our lives, aren't they? the things that keep us awake at night, the things that make us capable of waking up in the mornings.
i have too much to say, but as usual i have no idea where to start.
life is a blur of possibilities and moments of disillusionment (there IS such a word right?)
sometimes we have to do things for the money so we can keep dreaming.
this is the reality of the world.
the only thing we can do is to not demonize money. it is afterall the fuel of our dreams.
i have too much to say, but as usual i have no idea where to start.
life is a blur of possibilities and moments of disillusionment (there IS such a word right?)
sometimes we have to do things for the money so we can keep dreaming.
this is the reality of the world.
the only thing we can do is to not demonize money. it is afterall the fuel of our dreams.
living, living
have u ever experienced telepathy?
it's amazing.
i can't remember what i was thinking last night as i drifted to sleep. and then when i woke up it was ten in the morning, and the light was shining through my curtains.
can't stop thinking that it's going to be 2010 soon, because i remember 2000 all too vividly. we're heading towards the future as if on a rocket. we're speeding past life, life is speeding past us, all at a dizzying speed. i keep trying to figure out this whole LIFE thing, and then it occurs to me that life is merely one day at a time. if you really think about it, the future doesn't exist. today does. today is the only real, solid thing. tomorrow hasn't happened.
so we can only come to one conclusion: we have to live for today. living for anything else is living for an illusion.
have u ever experienced real love? i suppose we all have - at some point in our lives. we are just too stupid to realize it sometimes.
alright, im heading out with my new tamron 28-75mm f/2.8. hooray!
it's amazing.
i can't remember what i was thinking last night as i drifted to sleep. and then when i woke up it was ten in the morning, and the light was shining through my curtains.
can't stop thinking that it's going to be 2010 soon, because i remember 2000 all too vividly. we're heading towards the future as if on a rocket. we're speeding past life, life is speeding past us, all at a dizzying speed. i keep trying to figure out this whole LIFE thing, and then it occurs to me that life is merely one day at a time. if you really think about it, the future doesn't exist. today does. today is the only real, solid thing. tomorrow hasn't happened.
so we can only come to one conclusion: we have to live for today. living for anything else is living for an illusion.
have u ever experienced real love? i suppose we all have - at some point in our lives. we are just too stupid to realize it sometimes.
alright, im heading out with my new tamron 28-75mm f/2.8. hooray!
the key to happiness
on someone's blog i saw this:
"Strange.
On one hand, I have artist friends who wished they have studied/done something more lucrative, money-rolling instead of passion-feeding arts, because they see their counterparts from the banking, business, law industries, raking in wads of dollarbills like children stuffing, squishing, smearing icecream all over their mouths.
On the other hand, these stuffing, squishing, smearing icecream children- my banking, business, lawyer friends wished they have gone with their passion doing the arts, dancing, prancing, acting, drawing, singing, playing music, instead of clawing through (and clawed by) wads of dollarbills, climbing ladders that do not end.
Will we ever be happy?"
and then in the comments someone said this:
"im happy on my side of the grass."
"Strange.
On one hand, I have artist friends who wished they have studied/done something more lucrative, money-rolling instead of passion-feeding arts, because they see their counterparts from the banking, business, law industries, raking in wads of dollarbills like children stuffing, squishing, smearing icecream all over their mouths.
On the other hand, these stuffing, squishing, smearing icecream children- my banking, business, lawyer friends wished they have gone with their passion doing the arts, dancing, prancing, acting, drawing, singing, playing music, instead of clawing through (and clawed by) wads of dollarbills, climbing ladders that do not end.
Will we ever be happy?"
and then in the comments someone said this:
"im happy on my side of the grass."
selling: yashica electro
i am selling my yashica electro 35 GSN.
it's a beautiful, beautiful camera.
while i love it, i think there're other cameras that suit me better, so i'm letting it go, hoping that it will find someone more suitable for it.
yes i sound crazy. hahah.
i am selling the camera at $250, with four rolls of iso200 film included. if you're interested, please drop me an email at shini[at]casualpoet.com. price is negotiable ;)
making images
it makes my heart skip a beat, looking through the lens.
we make up stories as we go along.
we record reality.
we distort reality.
everything is so romantic and real.
moving with ease through this world.
taking and forgetting.
walking and dreaming.
we make up stories as we go along.
we record reality.
we distort reality.
everything is so romantic and real.
moving with ease through this world.
taking and forgetting.
walking and dreaming.
simplify
human relationships are too complex.
we want to say things but we don't, we want to do things but we don't, we want but we resist. people who belong together leave each other. people who love each other hurt each other the most. we have every opportunity to make it work but usually we just end up jeopardizing things.
just like how i care but i would never know how to express it.
because we're too damn complicated.
in other news, i am thinking of ding tai fung's pork rib egg fried rice 排骨蛋炒饭. wah even the name sounds good.
ah ma
(disclaimer: i'm always in a cap not becos im balding, but becos i had a bad hair cut and i'm trying to grow out my hair. i'm not balding REALLY)
ah ma, you're old already lah.
sometimes u cant have everything in the world. you have to make a choice.
but we're all so confused. just like how meredith and derek are always trying to break up with each other even though they know and we all know that they really, really LOVE each other. i think we just like to make things a little more complicated than they are.
just like george trying not to admit that he loves izzy, and then showing up at her doorstep and saying, "i love you, too"........
we have to make an educated choice and stick with it. that's life. that's how we should behave as grown-ups.
but we're all so confused. just like how meredith and derek are always trying to break up with each other even though they know and we all know that they really, really LOVE each other. i think we just like to make things a little more complicated than they are.
just like george trying not to admit that he loves izzy, and then showing up at her doorstep and saying, "i love you, too"........
we have to make an educated choice and stick with it. that's life. that's how we should behave as grown-ups.
View
the view was kind of splendid. it was windy. the day was ending. it was just.... almost perfect.
almost.
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