2009/2010

i start being a workaholic again on 1 jan 2010. i'm not so used to lazing around actually, although i really really enjoy living like this. not having to wake up at any particular time, extensive grocery-shopping, hanging out at home, watching DVDs, eating dinner in the neighbourhood, walking around doing nothing very important or consequential everyday.....it's all very kampongly and homely. if i could do this for the rest of my life - without having to worry about having to make a living and whatever other worldly thing - i would. i really would. although preferably not in singapore, preferably somewhere next to the beach, where i can catch the sunrise and sunset everyday just right outside my house......

but urban life does have its allure lah (although decreasingly so).

argh i am bad at consoling people or dishing out advice. so.... i don't know. i wish i could do something to help.

there're some people who you really really get to know and like so when the two of you are together it's like everything is unstoppable. i had this friend in jc who was like that. we only spent a matter of months together (she later left for another jc) but we really hit it off. she could bitch abt people in the awesomest way ever and it would leave me laughing and dying of stitches. we really really had something special. we understood each other in a way that no one else could. it was amazing. so many years have passed and i sometimes remember how we were laughing at each other's ugly student pass photo in the school hall and how i could say anything i wanted to say to her and not feel strange abt it and how she was the one who first discovered me holding hands with a girl in school (and she kept the secret of course, hahaha). and so many years have passed and i haven't met another person like her.

time always takes away some things from us.